Abyss and Distraction

"Abyss" - Julian Ravage

I never liked following the pack. The thought of following others always distressed me. I have this under lining thought that no one really knows what they are doing and a good portion of the time, they are just feeling everything out as they go.

This drives me to great distraction.

And because of these thoughts, I doubt much of my ability and drive to do things. It does seem pretty pointless in the grand scheme of life. I promised myself that this journal would not be about negative emotions and problems. But they do crop up every now and again.

I spent a good part of my Sunday researching other Trance/Techno/Electronica artists. Midway through, I felt I made a mistake. One thing a dreamer or artist should never do is compare their work with others. It makes you doubt yourself and your ability to create. You can look at the world and see a lot of talent and wonder how you fit in this world.

Then I powered on through that emotion and continued on to what I wanted to know. I pushed pass that negative energy and looked further into the direction I needed to be. Why doubt my ability or even my fun because some other nobodies on the net? I had to make sure I was doing something productive.

As I searched, I came across to few sites where someone can plug their music/album.

AudioStreet is a place I checked out. You can upload your music and album art by becoming a member. I spent part of time going through artists and listening to their music.

CTG Music was another placed I looked at. You can hotlink your MP3's to the site. You get rated and reviewed by other artists in the community.

These were two sites I checked out and found them interesting but wasn't sure that was the direction I wanted to go. Dont get me wrong, a place where artists can get together and talk shop is fantastic but you have more artists then people who just want to hear music. The market is drowning in people showing their stuff, the public has tuned it out.

I had to get back to the fun.My day turned a bit brighter when I put the headphones back on and played around with the music again. It is about the music and that should be the one thought in your mind. Drive back everything else and have fun. You will feel better. I promise.

~Julian