Slipping Away...

Time has a nasty way of getting away from you. I used to have too much time and now I dont have enough.

I was recently in Florida for a few days of relaxing due to the stress of the job and the people around me. It was much needed in so many ways. Andrea and I had a fantastic time and really cut loose.

We saw WatchMen, swam a little and enjoyed a few drinks.

I know, very exciting.

Never mind the fact the world keeps getting stranger to me. I will explain soon but for right now.....I just need to relax.

~Julian
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Ghost...

*I wrote this in Halforum today. I had been meaning to write about this experience but for some reason I held off. It bothers me and for a while I was afraid to write for fear of upsetting Andrea. I had talked to her a few weeks ago and she gave me the okay. For some strange reason....I finally decided to share it. What is below is a cut a past of what I wrote.

People have many different views on many things. My personal belief is something else though. As romantic as it is to believe in ghosts and other worldly things, I cant say I am a believer or a skeptic...maybe im both...its really hard to pin down. I have seen many things that just seem to mess with your mind but I am not the type of person to run off and yell "GHOST! GHOST! I SAW A GHOST!".

The human mind can manufacture many things. People can make themselves see whatever they want to see if the conditions are right. If you look at complete darkness, your mind will try to fill the void and make sense of the blank slate.

I like to write about this subject only because of the romantic nature of it. I am willing to put it out there but I wont defend or attack what someone has seen or felt. I have my share of stories but in the vastness of the time, space and the internet..it really just becomes another story.

The story can be tragic, beautiful, fearful or poetic..but it is just that..a story. It is how you take that story and apply it to you life is how wonderful or dismal it may effect you.

Ugh...I guess I should get back on topic...This subject kind of hits home with me at times.

My girlfriend and i were home one night. We had been drinking most of the night and we were afraid of getting sick while we slept. My girl was worried because we had talked and I brought up how one of my friends had died from choking on his own vomit. She was afraid to fall asleep as was I.
I had drifted off and then a short time later I woke up. I saw my girlfriends mother sitting next to our bed. She was patting our legs and giving me a very kind look. I fell back asleep and slept very well to the morning.
When me and my girl woke, we talked for a bit. I told her what I saw and she started to tear up. My girl's mother has been dead for 5 years. Her hair was shorter but it looked like her in every way.

You can take whatever I wrote anyway you want. It was an experience and a personal one.

Just for some reason....I felt like sharing.
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